:::sanjay kothari:::

ana

she feels so weak
ana’s so fragile
she wants her tea
she wants to gradually
disappear

she fucked up
so she says
because she stopped punishing
herself for one day

please let her be
i’ll try not to feed her
if she could see
just how much we need her
i know that she
thinks we mislead her
ana, is fading away

she has a goddess
her name is regret
she is so quiet
we never forget

she wants a miracle
that’s why she cries
even if the only way she can find it
is to die

please let her be
i’ll try not to feed her
if she could see
just how much we need her
i know that she
thinks we mislead her
ana, is fading away
just fading away

why does she smile as she’s wasting away
if we don’t know until it’s too late
she doesn’t care that we think she is beautiful

if i need to then i can pretend
if she won’t eat, how will it end?

please let her be
i’ll try not to feed her
if she could see
just how much we need her
i know that she
thinks we mislead her
ana, is fading away