:::sanjay kothari:::

deserved

another lonely walk
along a lonely road
the cars that see me
pass me like i'm made of stone

i wish that if i called out
you would come along
it took me just one nasty word
to drive you off

i convince myself
that i don't need you
i'm just fine

then i look around 
and see that no one's
by my side

i discarded you and tried
to make it on my own
i failed to see much it hurts
to be alone

i'll try it once again
i know i don't deserve you
i'm crying once again
never wanted to desert you
i'll starve myself to death
before i ever hurt you
i'll love you to the end
though i know i don't deserve you

i've broken every promise
that i've pledged to you
and still you trust in 
every word i slowly choose

and honesty's a word that
i have never known
betrayal is a cancer running
through my bones

and you still think you 
can open up your heart to me
you're blind and foolish
not to see i'll rip it free

i've tried before and failed
to see what you can see 
to make you open up your
foolish heart to me

i'll try it once again
i know i don't deserve you
i'm crying once again
never wanted to desert you
i'll starve myself to death
before i ever hurt you
i'll love you to the end
though i know i don't deserve you